The first time this blessing came, I was fresh out of Howard, full-time offer with a major pharmaceutical company in hand, and maybe $5K in debt. I didn’t even want the blessing that time. I was naïve. The second time this blessing came, I knew it was grace + mercy, but after a while, my depression stole my ability to cherish it. I wasted time, abusing the provisions God set out for me and wasted even more money trying to keep up with a lifestyle that could have taken my life